moonwise | Recent Tarot Reading

I read my own cards sometimes - it's a hobby I picked up in my witchy phase. Once in a while I still do a spread, and my life has been so conflicted that it didn't seem too weird to pick them up and ask a simple question. I've had my deck since high school, so they're old friends. Funny to think of cards that way. I've been thinking a lot about the layout.

Significator: Queen of Cups

Covering Card: Ace of Cups, reversed.

The Ace of Cups reversed indicates a state of great loneliness: nobody loves me. It also indicates a lack of emotional fulfillment. I have been feeling this way a lot esp. about my job; the project is difficult and unrewarding, and the social interactions that can be a balm to the discouraged student are not part of my experience. It's very hard to feel left out of goings-on both RL and online.

Crossing Card: Justice

This card indicates a need for balance and a need to think things through completely before making a decision. I've thought about leaving school; since this card acts against the crossing card, it counsels deeper thought.

Beneath: The Eight of Wands

Something that is already part of my experience. The Eight of Wands indicates travel, speed, high activity. It could point to hard work done in the past - perhaps the flurry of activity that led to my initial discoveries. There is a certain fulfillment and euphoria you feel when something works, and if it goes missing too long, you sink into a rut.

Behind: Temperance, reversed

An influence passing away. Temperance reversed indicates a period of self-indulgence, immoderation, and extremism. Read with the other cards, it could mean excessive self-pity.

Crowning card: The Hermit, reversed

Possible outcomes. The Hermit reversed indicates excessive isolation and cutting people out of my life. So, things will not change much in the near future, and I will continue to be my own worst enemy.

Before: 7 of Pentacles

Immediate future. The 7 of Pentacles indicates that a situation is still germinating, and hard work will pay off, but not necessarily immediately. The fruits are growing. One might feel that a project has been a waste of time, but this is not truly so. In a more negative aspect (and my reading is more negative than positive) one might realize that the work one has done is not enough. I worry about this a lot - what if the work I've done here is not enough to carry me in my later endeavors?

Self: The Emperor

The Emperor is a card of order, control, and power. In this case, it probably represents a desire for achievement, and a need to see the rational order of things play out. I would say in my case, it represents a need to take control of a situation.

House: The Ace of Wands, reversed

Friends and family see me as stymied and unable to break a bad pattern. I can't get going and it drags me down. More negatively, it means I'm someone who promises a lot and delivers little. I can see where those around me would get that impression.

Hopes/Fears: The Hanged Man, reversed

Hoping that a period of limbo might be coming to an end, perhaps. Or, fearing that I have to turn my world upside down to achieve progress.

Outcome: The Two of Swords, reversed

Breaking the stalemate. I will progress, one way or another - though the negative tone of the reading might indicate that it will not be in the direction I had hoped. On a positive note, it means my life will go forward.

"Madame Zora" has spoken.