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moonwiseIt's been a nice weekend.
It's always a nice weekend when we don't have to schlep anywhere to see parents sometimes. To be home for the weekend instead of sitting around the boat or Steve's parents' house.
We went to Flemington for china and fire opals. We had lunch out. Steve polished and waxed my car. Got to chat for a while on Friday night after sitting through a movie. Saw "Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back" (a waste of time for anyone who hasn't seen Kevin Smith's other movies, but we thought it was hilarious.)
We discussed weekends to come - next weekend I get dragged off to PA for a nice family bore with Steven and another ear-blasting round with Ginger. Weekend after that is my birthday. I don't think anyone would be bothered to spend it with me with the exception of my parents. Isn't that sad? I thought of having a party but there's no one to invite.
At least I got to spend the day baking biscotti and shortbread. Despite the diet. Anyone want some cookies?
There's that sunny Virgo personality rearing its ugly head up. Yeah the logic and perfectionism is fun, but wouldn't it be nice to be gregarious and non-judgemental.
Fanfics to finish. Science to think about. I don't want to think about science. I don't want to think about anything but leaving and just forgetting that my current life exists. There are too many chains of obligation and it weighs me down. I think I want them, but are they the ones I want?
Sometimes I daydream about just saying fuck it, about cashing in my investments and my accounts and going somewhere under an assumed name where I don't have any more history, where I just won't have to worry about what people think of me. To be that crazy cat lady on the edge of town in the big weird house. Maybe then someone will find me morbidly interesting.
To have friends you have to be a friend. I'm trying. Is it working? I sincerely doubt it. All I can expect is that hated tolerance. "Well we include you because you whine." Thanks for nothing.
There's a nice depressing entry. I don't think anyone reads this journal anyway so I shan't have to worry about it.
It's always a nice weekend when we don't have to schlep anywhere to see parents sometimes. To be home for the weekend instead of sitting around the boat or Steve's parents' house.
We went to Flemington for china and fire opals. We had lunch out. Steve polished and waxed my car. Got to chat for a while on Friday night after sitting through a movie. Saw "Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back" (a waste of time for anyone who hasn't seen Kevin Smith's other movies, but we thought it was hilarious.)
We discussed weekends to come - next weekend I get dragged off to PA for a nice family bore with Steven and another ear-blasting round with Ginger. Weekend after that is my birthday. I don't think anyone would be bothered to spend it with me with the exception of my parents. Isn't that sad? I thought of having a party but there's no one to invite.
At least I got to spend the day baking biscotti and shortbread. Despite the diet. Anyone want some cookies?
There's that sunny Virgo personality rearing its ugly head up. Yeah the logic and perfectionism is fun, but wouldn't it be nice to be gregarious and non-judgemental.
Fanfics to finish. Science to think about. I don't want to think about science. I don't want to think about anything but leaving and just forgetting that my current life exists. There are too many chains of obligation and it weighs me down. I think I want them, but are they the ones I want?
Sometimes I daydream about just saying fuck it, about cashing in my investments and my accounts and going somewhere under an assumed name where I don't have any more history, where I just won't have to worry about what people think of me. To be that crazy cat lady on the edge of town in the big weird house. Maybe then someone will find me morbidly interesting.
To have friends you have to be a friend. I'm trying. Is it working? I sincerely doubt it. All I can expect is that hated tolerance. "Well we include you because you whine." Thanks for nothing.
There's a nice depressing entry. I don't think anyone reads this journal anyway so I shan't have to worry about it.
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Date: 2001-09-11 12:30 am (UTC)>There's that sunny Virgo personality rearing its
>ugly head up. Yeah the logic and perfectionism
>is fun, but wouldn't it be nice to be gregarious
>and non-judgemental.
Well you know if you had been very gregarious and totally non judgemental some things like the Realm wouldn't have worked as well as they did, we wouldn't have seen some troublemakers before they had had time to ruin some stuff if it hadn't been for your spotting them first.
Ppl are different and there is a place for everyone and a use for all personality aspects...
>Sometimes I daydream about just saying fuck it,
>about cashing in my investments and my accounts
>and going somewhere under an assumed name where
>I don't have any more history, where I just
>won't have to worry about what people think of
>me. To be that crazy cat lady on the edge of
>town in the big weird house. Maybe then someone
>will find me morbidly interesting.
Don't we all dream of doing this from time to time?
Hey if you buy the house on the edge of town and move in with Rudi and his friends, can Susee and me buy the house next door?
>To have friends you have to be a friend. I'm
>trying. Is it working?
That tactic is working for me heh heh heh.
I think you should give yourself some more credit, as I say some things in the Realm would not have worked at all without you and without your initiative and views the group would have lacked something vital. You were very much part of why ppl say it was a good mod group. The same way why you'll be a part of some other groups and projects, b/c you should be there (optional for you of course don't feel pressured, you're certainly more busy than me).
Sure that's internet life but I'm certain your husband and family and real life friends think of you the same way, without you something would be missing that should be there.
I also think Ginger the earfull is competitive because she feels she needs to bolster her own self confidence when seeing your relationship with Steve and your mother in law.
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Date: 2001-09-11 01:00 pm (UTC)time?
Hey if you buy the house on the edge of town and move in with Rudi and his friends, can Susee and me buy the house next door?
Yeah sure! That sounds like a lot of fun. Children will skulk around the gates and dare each other to go knock on the door. lol!
Thanks for all your nice words. I do get down sometimes and it all comes out in a rush. And we all made a great mod team - good personalities and a willingness to work together.