just musing
Aug. 17th, 2001 04:45 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
moonwiseI like my new hair color. I look like a goddamm fire elemental with the red-copper-gold hair and my light green-blue eyes. It's really fun. Never got such an outrageous (for me) thing done to my appearance. It feels pretty good.
My husband got worried. He thought the big change in my hair would signal that I was feeling a different way about something, specifically him. Not true, I said. I just felt boring.
I had a lot of time to think about stuff like that while I was sitting in the chair with my hair in papers, staring at how silly I looked in the mirror and trying not to feel too girly. Some women get so wrapped up in their appearance that it's silly. I choose to do things like hair color and makeup not for the sake of what others are seeing, but because it amuses me.
I've had guys jokingly tell me that I'm a "guy's girl" because I like to watch football, don't get upset about mess, more laid-back about the jokey talk guys use around each other... stuff like that. It's also ironic that in all the advice columns you see, you hear women complaining that their boyfriend doesn't want to commit, doesn't want to get married, doesn't want to grow up. In my case, it was exactly the opposite; being unmarried was fine by me and I waffled on committing to my husband for a few years. It's all moot now, of course, but still.
I guess what bothers me a lot is when people get so wrapped up in who they are that they can't see past the ends of their own noses. I went to a women's school and there were some courses I had to take that degenerated into men-bashing by the end of class. It was completely disgusting to me that so many of my female classmates were unwilling or unable to grant the slack they themselves wanted. I never wanted to be like them. I still don't.
Guess that's why I still get weird about being "girly." I'm no tomboy, but there's a limit to the amout of preoccupation I want to have with appearances. So the hair was a guilty pleasure, but one I'm glad I did.
*sigh* This entry makes no sense. But I'll post it anyway.
My husband got worried. He thought the big change in my hair would signal that I was feeling a different way about something, specifically him. Not true, I said. I just felt boring.
I had a lot of time to think about stuff like that while I was sitting in the chair with my hair in papers, staring at how silly I looked in the mirror and trying not to feel too girly. Some women get so wrapped up in their appearance that it's silly. I choose to do things like hair color and makeup not for the sake of what others are seeing, but because it amuses me.
I've had guys jokingly tell me that I'm a "guy's girl" because I like to watch football, don't get upset about mess, more laid-back about the jokey talk guys use around each other... stuff like that. It's also ironic that in all the advice columns you see, you hear women complaining that their boyfriend doesn't want to commit, doesn't want to get married, doesn't want to grow up. In my case, it was exactly the opposite; being unmarried was fine by me and I waffled on committing to my husband for a few years. It's all moot now, of course, but still.
I guess what bothers me a lot is when people get so wrapped up in who they are that they can't see past the ends of their own noses. I went to a women's school and there were some courses I had to take that degenerated into men-bashing by the end of class. It was completely disgusting to me that so many of my female classmates were unwilling or unable to grant the slack they themselves wanted. I never wanted to be like them. I still don't.
Guess that's why I still get weird about being "girly." I'm no tomboy, but there's a limit to the amout of preoccupation I want to have with appearances. So the hair was a guilty pleasure, but one I'm glad I did.
*sigh* This entry makes no sense. But I'll post it anyway.
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Date: 2001-08-17 02:52 pm (UTC)